We've all been there, right? As the old year wanes, the countdown begins, the ball drops in the Big Apple and we find ourselves shoved into the collective calendar change. Among all the hullaballoo, it seems normal to reflect on the ups and downs of the previous year (or for some, 'years'), and make a 'plan-of-action' for the 'fresh start' each January holds. Enter, the resolutions.
Like many others, I have had a myriad of resolution-inspirations in the past. Many years focused on shedding pounds, some took the more general 'get in shape'/'get healthier', but all of those crashed and burned rather quickly. With so much 'non-success', I switched tactics by focussing on more personality-based improvements. Improving my punctuality, establishing certain daily and task-based routines, even picking a 'focus scripture' (Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord...") to internalize for guidance during the year. Unfortunately, very little of all of that had any long-term impact on me. Ok, I remember the scripture verbatim - and try to apply it when I remember to do so - and I did learn that 'routines' work really well for me. But, no real weight loss or other health improvements truly endured.
Fast forward to present day. As I went through the whole ordeal of reminiscing, regretting, regrouping and resolving, I finally realized that my battle plans of the past were doomed from the start. They were largely unrealistic, which meant they were unreliable as true catalysts of change. I'm always looking to improve *something* about myself (what human isn't?), the trick is to make the change stick. I need to get my romantic dreamer head out of the clouds, and back down here on planet earth. I need to give my resolution-making a reality check!
So here it is: My resolution for 2011 is to stand my ground more - even when the hardest part is *lovingly* and *respectfully* disagreeing with another. I will no longer be a 'fake Christian' by keeping silent to preserve a fake peace. I will take Christ's lead in speaking the truth - even when it's not convenient to do so - but with a tone of love and respect for all.
Is this a huge resolution for me? Sure! There may even be select people that read this resolution and see their part in it (how it impacts them, or how they have influenced its creation). But, is this plan-of-action realistic? Yes, I honestly believe it is. For personal reasons and circumstances I will leave unmentioned, I am personally invested in this resolution's staying power. In successfully applying this plan-of-action, there are certain areas (and relationships) in my life that will markedly improve (or so I hope).
Happy New Year to all; I pray that your (realistic) resolutions stay with you in the coming year(s)!
Jenn
